I am a friend-confessed commitment phobic. I say friend because thats what they say. But I dont think so. I have relationships with my parents and siblings and since they haven't yet thrown me out of the house or their lives, I'm doing well there. Yes I feel a certain closeness with them and of course if someone wanted to hurt them they'd have to go through me first. And of course I have friends, am not that introversial. I really try hard to maintain my friendships which are just as hard to maintain as a sexual relationship. So now let me give you my friend's point of view now that I have tried to defend myself, well my track record is not really that good. Had no real boyfriend who actually lasted long enough to make such an impact. Have now refused two dudes who my friends call "nice guys" with reasons that are very solid to me, but to my friends are just mere excuses. So now am stumped because the dudes who I would love to date don't even look at me twice and yet you say that I'm just 'ringaing'. OR maybe they're right. That I lust or fall for people who are way out of my league because I am subconsiously aware that they would NEVER consider me so that somehow its not me with the problem. Or I am too lazy to want to deal with men because I have the emotional backbone of a child and I wouldnt be able to deal with it for a long while before I can wake up again. NAAAAAH, my friends are just exagerrating things.
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